I yoinked this off Ryan's LJ.



If you saw ME in a police car, what would you think I got arrested for?

Answer me, then if you want, post to your own journal and see how many crimes you get accused of.

Currently, I'm sitting in the Ontario airport n California. It's funny, because a week ago I wasn't planning on being here. I don't know what I was planning, but I didn't think it would be this. Last week I decided last-minute to join Chad on his drive to LA for his summer internship in Simi Valley. I had nothing to do for three days and I figured that way he had company. I'm so glad that I came because we've had a lot of fun and I got to spend more time with him. But now its probably three months before I get to see him again. Overall, it could be worse. He's only in CA and not across an ocean. It's also only three months. But in the last year (yup, its been a full year already) I've never been away from him for more than one week. Don't get me wrong, I know we'll be fine and I know the time will fly, but for this moment, outside of gate 411 at Ontario International, I'm sad. At least it will get easier when I get home. And with help of a new job, Jamie, and the fabulous cell phone industry, August will be here quicker than I realize.

Speaking of new jobs, I start swim coaching tomorrow. That's pretty much awesome. My birthday is next week. I can start decorating my classroom July 1st. I can start planning now. Tomorrow I shall renew my forgotten efforts to lose weight and generally be healthier. Summer erases all of my past excuses.

This weekend was a lot of fun. Chad's roommates are hilarious. Oh crap, they are calling my group to get on the plane. Maybe I'll fix this later to have a little more emotion. Until then, cheers!

I'm somewhat grumpy and immensely stressed, but this totally made me smile

1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING / using IMDb search functions.

1. "We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless... of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play *goes on* and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?"

2.  "We were just killing time with those classes! One semester we took Criminology, for Christ's sake, what the fuck were we training to be, Batman?"

3. "I think there has to be a door between where you cook and where you crap. Even in the bush - tribal people, you know, they have a place for both. Probably it's like a law. God! It's probably in the Bible. It's at least a building code violation."

4. "Maybe I'll just sit here and bleed at you."

5. "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday."

6. "FUCK YOU MONTY! Always gotta be right, with your little quips! We get it, man. You're fuckin' edgy and cool. Yeah! You're the coolest fuckin' guy at Shenaniganz! WHOOO! That's like being the smartest kid with Down syndrome!"

7. "So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.' "

8. "When you decide to be something, you can be it. That's what they don't tell you in the church. When I was your age they would say we can become cops, or criminals. Today, what I'm saying to you is this: when you're facing a loaded gun, what's the difference? "

9. "Now I got their attention, you go and win their hearts. "

10. "A revolution without dancing is a revolution not worth having!"

I pass my AEPA... both parts!!  Woot!  As soon as I graduate, I will officially be certified to teach high school history in the state of Arizona!

But until then, time to finish my last assignment and start studying for finals.

I was being dramatic to Jamie and she suggested I write down my ideas for this program I devised.  So here it is.

12 steps for writing a research paper in one night:

1. Denial- "I don't really have that much to do for this."
2. Shock- "Holy crap!  It's due in 12 hours!"
3. Denial- "It probably won't take me that long.
4. Overwhelmed- "Where do I start?"
5. Panic- "I'm never going to get this done! 
6. Bargaining- "What's the worst grade I can get on this paper and still get (insert grade desired here)"
7. Despair- "Maybe I should just give up."
8. Acceptance- "Okay.  So I guess I should start with this point..."
9. Insomnia- (As written in an away message) "I think I am the only person awake in the world right now.  And I'm still working on this damn paper."
10. Completion- "It's done!"
11. Bragging- "I wrote my paper in 2 hours and I stayed up all night on 4 Red Bulls."
12. Coma- "Zzzzzzzzz"

I'm on step on 7 right now.  Acceptance should be coming any time now... right?

I am so in love, for the first time in my life.  It's amazing.  :)

In other news, Jamie is back!!!  Woot!  She is only in Tucson for a day, but in about a week, both my roomies will be here!!!

That is all.

Well then, how about a random update?

This has been such a great summer.  I am loving the time off from school.  I am working anywhere from 30-40 hours a week and it doesn't feel like it at all.  I still love my job and my co-workers, so that couldn't be going any better.  The only not so great thing is I have to work every other Sunday, so it is effecting when I can go to church and drive out to have dinner with my grandmother.  However, I think its worth the change because my happiness level is up and my stress level is the lowest it has been in ages.

I am moving August 6th.  I'm a little sad to say good bye to this house because it's definitely been a good place to live, but I am beyond excited to move in with the girls.  It's going to be legendary.  Ha.  I think I've been watching too many episodes of "How I Met Your Mother."  Whoopsie.  No, but the apartment is going to be great.  I have missed Jamie and Chris soooooooo much.  The only crappy element of this arrangement is that I will be moving in at least a full week before either of them are back in Tucson.  That will make me a sad panda, to be sure.  Regardless, it is such to be an amazing apartment and I can't wait.  My dad is even come down to help me move.  Isn't that nice of him?

Things with the boy are amazing.  Today marks two months, which I am having trouble believing.  I am pretty much crazy about the kid.  This weekend I am meeting him up in Phoenix for an event banquet that his company is hosting on Saturday night.  After that, we are driving out to Scottsdale to take Taylor out for a drink since his 21st birthday was Tuesday and I am sad I couldn't be there.  The cool thing is that his company is paying for the hotel room, so we can crash there.  Then on Sunday, I am taking him out to Gilbert with me to meet my parents.  Dun dun duuuuuuuuun.  I'm way more nervous about that than he is for some reason.  Perhaps my unnatural and unhealthy fear of my mother's opinion has to do with that?  However, did I mention that things are amazing?  Because they really are.

I joined a gym this week.  I am been pretty much coming home from work and sitting around or eating.  I figure it's time to do something.  Especially since I think I am going to finally do this if I can figure out a way to make it work.
Chris suggested it and I have wanted to do it for years.  I am just afraid that a month might not be enough time to get back into swimming full swing.  Especially since I haven't even done an open water swim.

Basically, this is a great summer.  I don't really want school to start, but I know good things will come there too.

We are leaving for California soon.  In theory, we probably should have left about 2 hours ago, but with Dad having the sniffles and Mom playing the role of the marytar, it took them a little longer to get ready.  I think the drive over there is going to be the worst part.  My dad doesn't feel good, my mom is stressed, and we have to take over way too much cr  ap.  Hopefully after arriving, the stress will melt away.  Until my sister's wedding, that is.

So tonight is Christmas Eve, tomorrow is Christmas.  We will be spening Christmas Day at the Wild Animal Park in San Diego.  Then on December 29th, my only sister will be getting married.  Crazy times.

Well, I better make sure things are progressing and that my parents are still speaking to each other.  WIsh me luck in California!

I am currently sitting on my parents' couch and watching Hocus Pocus. I am not going to class tomorrow, I am not going to work tomorrow, and I am avoiding all of the issues in my head for a full three days. I feel more relaxed than I have since school started and its amazing. I think I'm going to grab my awesomely cool fat cat and watch a movie. More writing to come this weekend, I'll bet. Hooray for quiet time!

I'm pretty much writing this to prove to Katie that I'm not simply an LJ stalker. I prefer the term "avid reader" anyway. With as busy as we all are, its nice to know how everyone else is doing.

Today was the best day I've had in a really long time. School and work and other obligations, along with some unforseen events in my personal life, have all been pretty much kicking my ass. Last night I was in bed by 9pm and didn't wake up until 7am. It felt sooooo good to sleep for more than 5 hours at a time. I had my volunteering today. Every Thursday, I spend about 4 hours at Mansfield Middle School, working in a 6th grade classroom. I really like it because my teacher actually integrates me into the classroom, I don't just have to sit and watch. I grade papers, put up boards, answer the kid's questions, etc. It's delightful to interact. Plus my teacher is great to talk to. We've had some really thought-provoking discussions about No Child left Behind, uniforms (which Mansfield has), and diversity. Not only am I learning a lot and having fun, she's heloing me deal with some of the issues I need to start thinking about when I decide where I want to teach. Scary thought... In a little more than a year and a half, I'll be a full-time, lisensed teachers. Egads. How eerie is that?

My Schooling in America class is fasinating. It's very rare to find a class where the students all actively participate and discuss without their grade depending on it. But we have some truly entralling conversations. Today we got into a heated debate about the ethics of Disney. I just really enjoy thoughtful discussions. It's a nice change from zoning out all the time, plus class flies by! Random fact... The Little Mermaid comes out on DVD soon! I've wanted to watch it since last year, but I don't have a VHS player. Hooray! I'm such a Disney kid at heart.

After class, I had dinner with Matt, Katie, Margeaux (hmm, I think I misspelled that. I'll have to find out how to spell it later), and Phil at Brooklen Pizza Company. I hadn't ever been there, but I really dig the environment. It's very chill. Then I got to go shopping with Jamie!!!! We had the best shopping trip to the Tucson Mall. We always have a good time, but this time we both found what we wanted. I bought a pair of jeans and a pair of Capris from Old Navy and then a denim mini skirt at Charlotte Russe, all for a grand total of just under $50. I was quite elated. We also managed to find Jamie a shirt to match her new shoes, along with a really bright shirt that looks fantastic on her. I adore shopping with Jamie.

All right, I'm put off studying long enough. Le pleh. Maybe I'll write something of interest later this month. I doubt it though. :)

*Edit* I just read through this and saw all of the grammatical errors. And yet, I'm too tired to do anything about it. Suffer through my apathy towards the English langauge and forgive me for my flaws. Cheers!!

Just a few thoughts to get off my chest.

19 credits is going to be harder than I thought. I don't know if the work load is going to be terrible, but I can't seem to make myself pay attention for that long! Two and half hours is incredibly long to sit in one class... and I'm doing it four times a week. Plus I need to find a teacher that will let me observe in their classroom for three hours a week. I don't know any high school teachers down here anymore! Argh, and my professor gave us absolutely no guidence. "Have a placement by Tuesday." Well, gee, thanks. I just left a message for my 8th grade science teacher who came into my work a few weeks ago. She remembered me, so that's a plus. The minus? It's at Wilson, which is in Oro Valley. I really have no idea what I am going to do.

I miss climbing. I need to make time twice a week to climb. I think I'm going to start swimming on Tuesday, since I have a long break. Hopefully the reason I've felt so out of it lately is the lack of exercise.

Thank God for wonderful friends. I've been feeling really lonely lately, but the random encounters with friends make my days sooooo much better. Like eating dinner with Matt tonight. Our Josh stopping by after his classes last night and studying with me. Sometimes I need reminders that school and work are not the most important things all the time.

*Deep breath

4 days down. I can do this.

I hope I'm a good teacher one day.

I just had my second motorcycle lesson!!! So much fun!!! I'm not perfect yet, not by a long shot, but I feel a lot more secure about everything and my shifting is so much more smooth! Chad said that I'm doing really well and that I just have to get more confidence. If only I could convince Chad to let me keep his bike while he is in Austrailia. Oh well. I think I may end up coughing up the dough for that motorcycle safety course in the fall after all. My roommate Kyle thinks I should take it with him. We'll see. I'm completely and totally hooked though. Yay for learning to ride!!!

A real update will be coming soon. To sum up though:

-My life rocks
-I live in the coolest house ever
-I love rock climbing. I love the high of beat a run, I love the people I go with, and I love hoe totally beat I am afterwards.
-I cause other people to be sleep deprived and I should really work on that.
-The guys in this house are amazing and its nonstop fun.
-Work is tiring, but still the best job ever
-Tomorrow my sister is coming to Tucson
-My parents are coming on Saturday and we are all going out to dinner at Golden Dragon.
-I really, really, really miss le Gilbert folk. I'm hardcore bummed that I didn't get to see Erin and Sam at all, and that I won't get to see Berto, Jill, James, Matt, or any of the other awesomely cool people up there until at least August.
-I am seriously the luckist girl in the world.

Night all!!!!!

Tonight I realized that I never want a stop button or the ability to rewind my life. I make my own choices and enjoy my happiness and learn from my mistakes. Sometimes I get sad and wish that things could be different, that they could be more like they used to be. But I know that's not what I want. I'm lucky, I lead an amazing life. Lately I've been getting so tired because I'm moving so quickly that when I stop, I don't really know how to handle the abrupt change in motion. I don't need a rewind button, or a way to make it stop. I just need to slow down. I don't regret anything. I know that every experience and every person I have encountered has made me who I am. So I know that those fleeting moments of sadness are not representative of my true feelings. So, for those of you that have had to deal with me lately, just know that I love you, and I do know how entirely lucky I am to have you in my life.

PS. Blake, if you still read this, this has nothing to do with you, I promise. It's a seperate issue that does not relate to you at all, but I know if I saw this, I would be confused. So, always to be blunt, right?

I was this old when I first:

FELL IN LOVE - 19
LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU- n/a
DRANK ALCOHOL- 17
SMOKED WEED- 18
GOT KISSED - 10 or 16, depending on your definition
WENT TO THE HOSPITAL - 5 or 6ish
GOT YOUR HEART BROKEN - Haven't really. Granted, it's been kicked around quite a bit, but I don't think it has shattered yet.
LOST A PET- 9?
GOT ARRESTED- n/a
SMOKED A CIGARETE- 18
BROKE A BONE- n/a
GOT A JOB- 16
GOT CHEATED ON- n/a, although I wouldn't have put it past Kevin
CHEATED ON SOMEONE- never
GOT A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND- 15
RODE THE CITY BUS- n/a
WENT TO A CONCERT- 16
MET SOMEONE FAMOUS- Sometime in the span I went to church. We had several prominant tucson people go there. That's as famous as it gets for me.
GOT IN A CAR CRASH- 18
DYED YOUR HAIR- 18
RODE AN AIRPLANE- 3
WENT TO ANOTHER STATE- 3 or 4

How Many:

LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS HAVE YOU BEEN IN- 1
TIMES HAS YOUR HEART BEEN BROKEN- Again, just really bruised thus far
PETS DO YOU HAVE- 1
PEOPLE DO YOU HATE- None long term. I'm guilty of having moments of passion and a really bad long term memory
TIMES HAVE YOU HAVE BEEN DUMPED- Once (text messaging!)
TIMES HAVE YOU DUMPED SOMEONE- twice

There Berto, you are more interesting than me. All right, back to finishing the paper...

I'm trying to write a paper for my Political Soc class, but the thinking juices just aren't flowing. SO maybe providing a real update here will get the writing ball going.

Hello to all three of you that read this! I hope this entry finds you in good health and not overly stressed about school, work, or anything else that might cause one stress.

Life for me is going pretty well. I am currently upstairs in Expresso Art, trying to find inspiration to write a paper on social class or research for my 15 page paper that is due in 2.5 weeks. Ugh, I don't like the month and a hlaf before school lets out.

Some changes have occured. I'm living in Yavapai now with the wonderful Jamie Z, and I must say that I am having so much fun! I'm really missed living with someone who understands my jokes and comes up with there own and doesn't have an annoying, high pitching voice... ahem. Whoopsie. It really is nice though. Jamie and I have gotten pretty close and that makes me happy. We are a crazy duo.

Blake and I broke up a couple of weeks ago. He's such an amazing guy, he really is, but it wasn't meant to be. It's been a weird adjustment for me. I know four months isn't a long time in the grand scheme of things, especially if we are looking at it from geologic time, but that was my first serious relationship. I enjoyed most of it, didn't like some things, and learned more than I realized. It's been hard to establish a solid friendship with him due to the emotions that we both still have, but I have faith eventually we'll both have some distance and become better friends.

I got accepted into the College of Education. I'm almost halfway done with college. Kind of a crazy thought. I start my education classes next semester. I'm only taking education classes and psych classes due to scheduling (registering for classes sucks!), but it'll be nice to have a break from the intensity of history classes. I'm taking 19 units, 6 of which are 200 level psych classes, so it should actually be the easist semester I've had since my first semester of college. Let us hope. I'm trying to work it around work, but as it is, I'm going to have to cut my hours. Oh well, life goes on and my boss will survive.

I'm really excited about my probable living arrangements for next year. I am most likely living in the poker house with Paul, Chad (two of my very best friends), Caleb, and Kyle. That'll be amazing, I know it all ready.

Oh! And in 3 months, I'll be galavanting across Europe! Yay for studying the Middle Ages in 8 countries.

So really, I'm pretty much the luckiest girl in the world.

Sorry that this entry isn't all that interesting, but its progress that I updated right? Maybe I'll write something with more depth to it soon. Hope all is well!